Aug. 28, 2025

RAD RERUN!!!! You Can't Always Get What You Want

RAD RERUN!!!! You Can't Always Get What You Want
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This is a story about life, drugs, rock and roll and what really matters. This is one of our absolute all time favorite stories about a teenager growing up in New York in the 70s and how things never work out exactly how you planned.

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Hey, guys, it's Joe. Good evening. I will say that

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I love all of the stories that we tell here

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and that you guys send in, but this one is

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This one's especially sweet. And we do say add anxiety

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addicts that good writing is meant to make you think,

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and this is the opposite. But this might make you

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think a little bit in a good way. I spend

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a lot of time looking at various blogs and books

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and podcasts telling me how to chill out and how

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to stop the spiraling. And one of the things that's

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repeated over and over is that a gratitude list is

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how you help yourself go to sleep at night. And

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I don't think a gratitude list and ten milligrams of

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ambient are on the same level. But I do think

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as part of a winding down habit, it's it doesn't

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hurt to list the things that you have in your

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life that you're really simply grateful for. This story made

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me think of those things. So I'm not telling you

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how to live your life or how to engage in

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your bedtime routine, but this is here for you.

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To the restless, the insomniacs, the stressed out, the overwork

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the doom scrollers, the worried, and the board. This is

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for you. Good writing is meant to make you think.

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This is the opposite. Sure funny and unfortunately true stories

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that have mostly to do with nothing to help you

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turn off your brain and turn on your ram. All

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names have been changed to protect the guilty. These are

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anxiety addicts bedtime stories.

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Some lives just don't start out super exciting, especially when

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you're an Italian girl in a suburb of northern New Jersey.

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But then maybe you get lucky. Maybe your mother's brother,

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uncle Philip, moves to town. This story is about Andrea

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and her quest to find a real life that could

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measure up to her dreams, and also about her uncle Philip.

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More on him in a moment. Andrea's mom and dad

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immigrated through Ellis Island from Sicily right after the Second

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World War. Her mother became the neighborhood's most sought after seamstress,

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at one point working in the most exclusive wedding dress

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shop on Madison Avenue. Her father worked as a welder,

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joined the Union, and managed to retire with a pension

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and nine fingers. In a lot of ways, it was

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the American dream, but it wasn't Andrea's. She tried to

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make every day more interesting in grade school. That landed

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her in the principal's office. In middle school, it was

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three days of suspension. By high school narrowly avoided booking

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charges only because well, she was really, really pretty. And

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that was nineteen sixty six, and that was when Uncle Philip,

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her mother's youngest brother, moved into the city. And that

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was when and how this whole thing started. From what

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Andrea was told, Philip enlisted in the navy and spent

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years in Europe. The way her parents discussed him, occasionally

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in hushed voices and then as a warning to their

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mischievous teenage daughter. Military service was not a great fit

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for her uncle. She had heard once from a distant

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cousin at Thanksgiving that he had tried to throw the

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ship's captain overboard and was discharged due to mental health

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issues or whatever they called it back then. Instead of

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buying a home with a white picket fence upon his

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return to American soil, Uncle Philip used his gi bill

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money to study ballet with the late and very famous

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choreographer Jacques d'Amboise. Andrea was told, with genuine pride by

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a great aunt that her uncle had the highest leap

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of anyone in class. When she heard he was moving

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close by, Andrea was rightly convinced that this family member

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was going to be her ticket to a significantly more

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colorful life. Andrea became a regular fixture at her uncle's

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apartment because, for one thing, Andrea's downtown public high school

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was so overcrowded and understaffed that teachers mostly didn't bother

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with attendance. This was the second reason that Andrea stopped going.

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The first is that she was a very bright girl,

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and thusly in those tightly packed classrooms a very bored one.

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Uncle Philip's apartment was one Marlborough cigarette breakaway. Andrea would

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arrive at the door of his third story walk up

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knock twice and then let herself in, as Philip had

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lost his key a week after he signed the lease

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and had never bothered to replace it. What are burglars

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gonna take? He'd ask Andrea, shrugging his broad shoulders and

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raising his dark unibrow, so he looked a bit like

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Ernie from Sesame Street. His pensiant for widely striped sweaters

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only furthered this illusion. Yet it was meant to be

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a rhetorical question, but not to Andrea. Uncle Philip allowed

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her to open all the drawers in his pantry and

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take what she wanted, and only one of them had cookies.

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As far as she was concerned, there was a whole

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heck of a lot in Philip's apartment that a burglar

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might want to take. On his shelves, where there should

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have been jars of sugar and flour were instead lots

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of seventies drugs, weed and hash and valume and queludes.

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These were the kinds of treats she and other visitors

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would randomly uncover while foraging for a bag of potato chips.

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And he was generous with them, so very generous. And

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he was always game to roll a joint and light

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up in the middle of the afternoon while his niece

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should have been in the fourth row of Classroom Sea

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of Abraham Lincoln High School learning calculus. No matter how

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stone they got, Uncle Philip would insist that they sit

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down and do her homework together. She got to B

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plus it could have been an A, but her teacher

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noted her lack of class participation. Andrea began to bring

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her friends over to Philip's apartment, where everyone would get

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high and listen to war stories and vinyl records. This

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went on for a few years. During that time, Andrea

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memorized the Beatles catalog as well as the doors and

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sly in the family stone. She learned about the war

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and the Old Country, and met many many of Uncle

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Philip's friends and girlfriends, who all seemed to be comfortable

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pushing open his unlocked door at any time, day or night.

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In retrospect, Andrea learned more on those smoky afternoons about

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history and the world than she ever would have in

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a classroom. And even though she managed to pull her

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grades together her senior year and then get into an

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Ivy League school, the one in Pennsylvania, she still looked

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to Philip to fill that void of excitement, a feeling

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that would creep up and overtake her no matter how

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much she tried to shut it out. When she was

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married and divorced with two children in her twenties, hold

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up in a tiny apartment on the Lower East Side

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where she worked on her dissertation, Easter rolled around sneaking

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up on the young mom. She was exhausted, broke, frazzled,

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and newly single. It was too much, and it could

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have been a breaking point. The moment she realized that

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she hadn't bought chocolate or eggs or confetti was when

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her phone rang. It was, of course, Uncle Philip. No

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sooner had she tearfully explained her situation when she heard

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the words that she hadn't known how badly she needed

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to hear. Don't you worry, sweetheart, I'll be right there.

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And right there he was, but in true Uncle Philip's style,

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he was not alone. Yes, there was a woman on

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his elbow, dressed in head to toe daytime sequence, but

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there was also a large box, and the large box

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was wiggling. Inside were nineteen baby chicks, yeah, nineteen, and

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in his arms a bunny, Yeah, a bunny. Before Andrea

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could protest at the sight of farm animals in her

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New York City one bedroom apartment, her girls were at

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the door, shrieking in absolute joy. Andrew was outnumbered, and

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she knew she couldn't turn away her uncle or his

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chicks or the bunny. As she closed the door behind

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the menagerie, she simultaneously cursed and thanked Philip because even

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now with her totally chaotic life, Andrea still craved excitement.

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A few years later, he invited her and her girls

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and her new boyfriend to his new home on Long Island.

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Andrea was grateful for the break in the day to

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day life of work and studying and raising children. At

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his invitation, she looked forward to something different to do

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on a Saturday night and an excuse to get out

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of the city. When they arrived, Uncle Philip gave them

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a tour of his new digs. On the phone, Andrea

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had noticed her uncle becoming increasingly eccentric, but she hadn't

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understood the extent of it until she stepped foot in

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his living room. Everything everything was covered in tinfoil, every surface,

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every sofa, every lamp, every table. Only the shag carpet

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under her white boots had been spined. The girls thought

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it looked like a palace. Andrew was terrified. The new

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boyfriend tried unsuccessfully to run out the back door. What's

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going on here? Andrea tried to keep her voice, even

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it was a challenge. Uncle Philip gestured with a huge

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smile to his magnetic seating area. Isn't she lovely? I

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did it all myself. Andrea hadn't actually considered whether he

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might have hired an interior decorator to design the metal

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covered mess. She didn't know whether or not to be concerned.

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She'd relied on this man for a decade and a

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half to bring the drama and fun into her world.

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Isn't that exactly what he was doing? Was he going

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off the deep end? Possibly? Quite possibly, but maybe he

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was genuinely flexing his interior design muscles. Still, all that

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crinkling when she sat down on the couch was hard

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to ignore. It was only a year or so after

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that visit when Andrea got the news that her uncle

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was diagnosed with cancer. We'll have a big Christmas, declared Andrea,

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hanging up the phone with her sister, and she immediately

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invited Philip. When she'd put her mind to something, nothing

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was going to get in her way. She spent the

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next five weeks scouring the city for the most over

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the top Christmas decorations that she could find. She invited

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family from all over the Tri state area. She prepped

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and chopped, cooked and baked. When people walked through the

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door of her new three bedroom apartment, there were lights

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and sweets and tinsel. She had to pause before that purchase,

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since it reminded her of his apartment and candle overload.

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Everyone was wowed, especially Uncle Philip and the new woman

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in Purple who trailed him from room to room. Even

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in his last season of life, Philip still had it.

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The wine flowed freely in the room. Other things flowed

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from Philip's pockets. Andrea felt herself turning into a child,

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continually glancing at the stacks of presents underneath the tree.

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She knew that this was most likely the last Christmas

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with her chin irished uncle, and she couldn't wait to

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see what he'd concocted for what he probably understood too

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might be his parting gift to her. She sunk into

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a velvet chair, a newly acquired piece purchased on layaway

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that she'd shop specifically for this night. She took in

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the noise and chatter and smells and chaos of her

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cozy new home, filled with people she both loved and tolerated.

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She took a brief trip down memory lane, listing all

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the incredible gifts that she'd received from him. There were,

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of course, the joints and the music, the concert t shirts,

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and the impromptu trips to Atlantic city. There was the

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jewelry of unclear origins, and once a red convertible that

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he had to take back after a month. This man

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and his presence were, as far as Andrea was concerned,

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the stuff of legends. She felt like a little kid

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when her cousin herded the family to the tree after

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dinner for the gift giving part of the night. She

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scanned the big and little boxes for her name scribbled

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and Philip's shockingly perfect script. She tried to wait patiently

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as the kids opened their dolls and remote control cars

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and new blue jeans. She reminded herself that she was

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an adult. The presents were silly. She chastised the butterflies

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swimming around her stomach as she watched her uncle a

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hand out shiny boxes wrapped with ribbon. She held her

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breath when he approached her with a shoe box and

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a shit eating grin. Andrew took her time on wrapping it,

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savoring the moment. She felt him hover over her shoulder

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as she gingerly slid her finger through the paper, her

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palm becoming just the tiniest bit sweaty. The plaid, iridescent

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paper fell to the carpeted floor. Inside was a box

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that had once contained mouse traps. Somehow that made the

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possibility of the contents even more intriguing. She looked up

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at the man who had done so much for her,

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who had saved her for more than he would ever know.

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She glanced at her daughters, who also gazed at him,

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at clearly also anticipating a gift for their mother. Andrew

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moved slowly, drawing out the moment as much as she could,

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feeling surrounded by love and warmth and that special holiday feeling.

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She lifted off the top of the cardboard mouse trap

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box and allowed her eyes to look inside, where there

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was a very very large rubber band ball. Yeah, a

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ball of rubber vands. There could have been thousands, but

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the plummeting of Andrew's heart took all her attention, and

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she didn't bother to count or estimate the number. She

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looked to her uncle. His smile was one of pure joy.

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There wasn't even a glimmer of a prank. Thank you

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was all that she could muster. The fumes of her

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disappointment gathered in her heart and condensed in her eyes.

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It wasn't that she was expecting the hope diamond in

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the mouse trap box. It was that Uncle Philip's magic

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was something she'd been counting on for weeks and dreading

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losing forever. The heavy, oversized rubber band ball sat like

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a dead weight in her laugh. She watched as the

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younger kids ripped open their trainsets and barbie dolls. She

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smelled the pie her aunt had just pulled out of

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the oven, and listened to a few of the teenagers

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bang on the old piano. One of those senses pushed

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her to cry to fawn sob and that's the great

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thing about a great family. No one asked Andrew what

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was the matter, or seemed put off by her tears.

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They just put their arms around her and let her

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let it all out. She glanced up at Philip, feeling

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his eyes on her as she melted into a puddle

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on the new velvet cushions. So I'm for me to

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go doll face. He pulled her up from the chair,

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his frame feeling smaller and more fragile than she remembered.

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He wrapped her in a hug that she knew she

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wouldn't forget, and he put his hands on her shoulder

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and looked her right in the face, and with total sincerity, asked,

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so pretty great, huh. For years following Andre would keep

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the rubber band ball in the kitchen, needing it for

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various projects with the kids. She absent mindedly moved it

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to her office, using it to hold together large pieces

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of mail and folders. It moved with her out to

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the suburbs after her daughters left for college. It traveled

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in her briefcase to the summer home she was able

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to buy her family on the shore. It took a

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long time, seriously, decades for the ball to run out.

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A band here to hold together the broken doorknob, another

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there to hold together the potato chip bag, many many

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used for holding together roles of the architectural plans that

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had become her business. You never know how badly you

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need a bunch of rubber bands until you need a

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bunch of rubber bands. And Andrea finally got her moment,

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a stop in your tracks, the wind knocked out of

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you second she got it. She finally got it. She

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wished she'd had it earlier, years earlier, but it wasn't

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until she was down to her last size solitary rubber

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band that she froze. The band in her palm when

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she realized what Uncle Philip had really done for her. Sure,

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he'd given her so many fabulous material gifts, but what

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he truly gifted were the memories of him and all

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he had taught her about history and life and friends

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and people and memories and choices and love. Those lessons

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that she could count on for the rest of her life.

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And then, through a freakin rubber band ball, he'd managed

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to stay in hers stay close to her for another

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seventeen years. Yeah, Philip made life more exciting, but it

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was all because he taught her where to find meaning

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and that on this dark, insomniac night, is what it's

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all about, Sweet dreams.

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